Feelin' Good [ 4.1.08 - 1.41am ] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | Rent - One Thousand Kisses ]  So I am feeling very happy and optimistic. I know this sounds dumb but even though I havnt been making the best choices lately..I'm just happy doin' what I'm doing. I'm not messing with anyone's feelings. I have good friends and do something just about every night. And even the night I dont do anything I am simply happy staying home curling up and reading a book. Work isnt so bad because I'm making money, who can beat that? Getting paid to fold clothes, hell yeah. I always say how I want to do all these things to change myself when I am in a goal setting mood. But right now all I want to do is just do what I want, have fun, and live my life right now and hope happiness follows. Oh and hopefully I can find some people that want to get an apartment this summer =D Yay for moving forward. Read 2 // Post Comment

I'm in love... [ 2.5.08 - 10.40pm ] [ mood | giddy ] [ music | Feist - So Sorry ] ...with a fictional character. So I just watch "The Jane Austen Book Club" and I pretty much loved it. I need to have a Jane Austen movie marathon night and only watch the best version like Pride and Prejudice with the ever so sexy Colin Firth and Sense and Sensebility with Kate Winslet....oh yes. Post Comment

Where am I going? [ 2.4.08 - 7.42pm ] [ mood | disappointed ] [ music | Evita - Suitcase In Another Hall ]  I don't expect my love affairs to last for long. Never fool myself that my dreams will come true. Being used to trouble, I anticipate it, But all the same, I hate it... Wouldn't you? So what happens now? (Another suitcase in another hall) So what happens now? (Take your picture off another wall) Where am I going to? (You'll get by, you always have before) Where am I going to? Time and time again I said that I don't care. That I'm immune to gloom, that I'm hard through and through. But every time it matters all my words desert me, So anyone can hurt me, and they do. So what happens now? (Another suitcase in another hall) So what happens now? (Take your picture off another wall) Where am I going to? (You'll get by, you always have before) Where am I going to? Call in three months time and I'll be fine, I know. Well maybe not that fine, but I'll survive anyhow. I won't recall the names and faces of each sad occasion, But that's no consilation here and now. So what happens now? (Another suitcase in another hall) So what happens now? (Take your picture off another wall) Where am I going to? (You'll get by, you always have before) Where am I going to? (Don't ask anymore Post Comment

Song list for JD [ 2.3.08 - 8.26pm ] [ mood | creative ] [ music | Raintree - Clovers ] Shiny Toy Guns - Le Disko Shiny Toy Guns - Rainy Monday Shiny Toy Guns - Don't Cry Out Shiny Toy Guns - You Are The One Rilo Kiley - Dreamworld Rilo Kiley - Money Maker Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Maps Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Kiss Kiss Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Down Boy Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Golden Lion Yeah Yeah Yeahs - 10x10 Tegan and Sara - The Con Paramore - For A Pessimist, I'm Pretty Optimistic Paramore - That's What You Get Paramore - That's What You Get Paramore - That's What You Get Paramore - Hallelujah Paramore - Misery Business Paramore - When It Rains Lyrics Paramore - Let The Flames Begin Paramore - Pressure Paramore - crushcrushcrush Lyrics Paramore - Brighter Paramore -Born For This Lyrics Paramore - Here We Go Again Paramore - Pressure Paramore - Emergency Paramore -Brighter Paramore - Here We Go Again Paramore -Never Let This Go Paramore - Whoa Paramore -Conspiracy Paramore - My Heart Paramore -Oh Star Straylight Run - Still Alone Straylight Run - Tool sheds and Hot tubs Straylight Run - Soon We'll Be Living In The Future The Scene Aesthetic - Call It A Lullaby The Scene Aesthetic - The Alamo Is No Place For Dancing The Early November - Pretty Pretty The Early November - Sunday Drive The Early November - I Want To Hear You Sad The Early November - Ever So Sweet The Early November - Everything's Too Cold...But You're So Hot The Raintree - Clovers The Raintree - You Can't Win Dear And The Headlights - I Just Do Hidden In Plain View - Twenty Below Harvey - Moonbeams Harvey - So Desperate We're Dead Caecelia - I Forget What This Is Called A Day To Remember - You Had Me At Hello Feist - 1234 Feist - My Moon My Man Feist - I Feel It All Feist - Mushaboom A Fine Frenzy - You Picked Me Imogen Heap - The Walk Frou Frou - Must Be Dreaming Post Comment

[ 2.1.08 - 11.28pm ] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | Yeah Yeah Yeahs - 10x10 ]  Dear Livejournal, I am sorry myspace ate my soul. I will do my very best to blog more. We've been apart too long and I miss you. You always seemed to care. I hope you can forgive me for giving into its evil trap, it's like walmart, it attracts you with its low price but really it's just crap. We'll anyway, I will try and be a better blogger. All my love, Courtney Read 1 // Post Comment

[ 12.4.07 - 1.33am ]  I will let you down I will make you hurt Post Comment

[ 11.2.07 - 11.09am ] [ mood | loved ]  I hold on to your secrets in white houses. Post Comment

I want to save you, I need you to save me too. [ 10.11.07 - 6.04pm ] [ mood | crushed ]  Why does he get to be happy and I dont? Read 2 // Post Comment

[ 10.9.07 - 1.06pm ] [ mood | sick ] [ music | Elliot Smith - Between The Bars ] I really need to get my shit together. I cant keep fucking up like this. No matter how un-interested I am in everything. I need to do my homework. Fuck. Post Comment

Fuck...karma.... [ 9.9.07 - 1.22pm ] I  had a dream last night that I was sad and so a guy wanted to cheer me up by taking me out. Five minutes later a giant fireball hits him and he is rushed to the hospital.....How lucky am I, even in my dreams..... Post Comment

But I lay here all alone... [ 9.9.07 - 1.01pm ] [ music | Paramore - Until Tomorrow ]  "Breathe for love tomorrow Cause there's no hope for today Breathe for love tomorrow Cause maybe theres another way" Post Comment

[ 8.27.07 - 1.05pm ] where the fuck is my fucking $125 math book!?!?!?! fuck! Read 2 // Post Comment

Lets start a riot [ 7.30.07 - 1.37pm ] [ music | Paramore - That's What You Get ] No sir, well I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore. It's your turn, so take a seat we're settling the final score. And why do we like to hurt so much? I can't decide You have made it harder just to go on And why, all the possibilities where I was wrong That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa. That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa. I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating. And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa. I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you're not here. 'Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here. I still try holding onto silly things, I never learn. Oh why, all the possibilities I'm sure you've heard. That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa. That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa. I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating (beating) And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa. Pain make your way to me, to me. And I'll always be just so inviting. If I ever start to think straight, This heart will start a riot in me, Let's start, start, hey! Why do we like to hurt so much? Oh why do we like to hurt so much? That's what you get when you let your heart win! Whoa. That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa. That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa. Now I can't trust myself with anything but this, And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa. Post Comment

[ 7.23.07 - 11.34am ] [ mood | discontent ] [ music | Sound of the ocean ] I miss you more than I'd like to admit Post Comment

If only time flew like a dove [ 7.19.07 - 11.37am ] [ mood | okay ] [ music | Paramore - Hallelujah ] Somehow everything's gonna fall Right in To place If we only had a way To make it all Fall faster everyday If only time flew like A dove God make it fly Faster than I'm falling in love This time we're not givin up Let's make it last forever Screamin Hallelujah We'll make it last forever Holdin on to patience wearin thin I can't force these eyes to see the end Iif only time flew like A dove We could watch it fly And just keep lookin up This time we're not givin up Let's make it last forever Screamin Hallelujah We'll make it last forever And we've got time On our hands And we've got Got nothing but time on our hands Got nothing but Got nothing but Got nothing but time on our hands This time we're not givin up Let's make it last forever Screamin Hallelujah Hallelujah Post Comment

Fun Day [ 7.18.07 - 11.44pm ] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | Tv in the background ] Today my mom and sara and i left at 7:30am sara and i only had about 2-3hours of sleep. I am sooooo tired. We walked around some shops in downtown seattle which was fun but I am sooo tired. My mom had her interview while we walked around and I hope she gets the job. Anyway tomorrow were doing some more shopping then going home. So....goodnight. ooooh ya, I got an awesome fortune from the fortune teller machine today and I really want it to come true!!!! Post Comment

[ 7.17.07 - 8.25pm ] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | Relient K - Which to Bury, Us or the Hatch? ] I think you know what I'm getting at I find it so upsetting that the memories that you select you keep the bad but the good you just forget and even though I'm angry I can still say I know my heart will break the day when you peel out and drive away I can't believe this happened And all this time I never thought that all we had would be all for naught No, I don't hate you don't want to fight you know I'll always love you but right now I just don't like you No, I don't hate you don't want to fight you know I'll always love you but right now I just don't like you cause you took this too far Make your decision and don't you dare think twice go with your instincts along with some bad advice this didn't turn out the way I thought it would at all you blame me but some of this is still your fault I tried to move you, but you just wouldn't budge I tried to hold your hand but you'd rather hold your grudge I think you know what I'm getting at you said goodbye and I just don't want you regretting that and wisdom always chooses these black eyes and these bruises over the heartache that they say never completely goes away (I just can't believe this happened and one day we'll see this come around) what happened to us i heard that it's me we should blame what happened to us why didn't you stop me from turning out this way and know that I don't hate you and know that I don't want to fight you and know that I'll always love you but right now I just don't... Post Comment

[ 7.16.07 - 8.09am ] [ mood | awake ] [ music | Cold War Kids - Hang Me Out To Dry ] I need to start sleeping.... Read 1 // Post Comment

[ 7.14.07 - 12.57am ] This time I think Im done. With all of it. Post Comment

[ 7.12.07 - 5.59pm ] What I wouldnt give... Post Comment

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